How do you know?

How do you know that what you are doing as a parent is enough to raise them right? 
How do you know if your children and family truly know how much you love them? 
How do you make sure that you are doing the right things by your family? 
How do you know that when you make the choices you do that they will not hurt later?
How do you know that you have not loss all sense of the true you in trying to be the best you that you want to be in your career?
How do you know that they will always be okay?
How do you know that you have done enough preparation for whatever comes your way?
How do you know?????

I wonder about a lot of things, I may never get the answers I expect or need but I know that is what prayer and guidance is for but it doesn't stop me from wondering.

I miss my family, I hate that I cannot be home with them all tonight.  I will really miss my husband but I know he is off on his guys weekend so I will enjoy my weekend with my kiddos.  I have no expectations other than snuggling on the couch while watching movies tomorrow night.  I pray my travels are uneventful and safe. 

As I tried to lay down and go to sleep my mind would not stop, it wants to know, "how do you know?" 
I know deep in my heart that it is not always the right decision or choice, you cannot change what you do but you can learn and grow from everything. 
I know that I am not always perfect, no one is but I try hard to do what is right. 
I know that at times I let the stress get the best of me, but I try not to let it happen, I guess I need to try harder. 
I know that I love my family more than they will know.
I know that I miss my friends, you know the ones that are there when you need them but that you never get to spend enough time with because life happens.  Thank you for not giving up on us.  I need to know you all are there and never far away.
I know that I wish I had more time to do it all, but I don't so it is about balancing and trying to make the most of everything and letting go of some things.

I know that tomorrow night I will be home and the world will look so much better. 

Until then, sleep tight my little ones, momma loves you and cannot wait to see you. 
Bubby, have a great time, you appear to be ready with chips and beer for the weekend.  We love you and hope you enjoy your birthday - by the way this is the first one in 12 years where you will be away.